I had to do it

Why did he come? Why did he ask? I did not want to do it but he was asking and asking and he would not stop until he had found Dickie. What an uncomfortable situation! He noticed my shoes, the silver identification bracelet and the silver clip on my tie with a suspicious G. I should do it, I had to do it!

Fortunately, even though I had not planned my action I think it would go well. Alcohol, violence and a missing wallet are the perfect ingredients to make the police believe that it was a robbery.

The only problem is that I have to change my mind because the police want me to stay in Rome.

Paris

I am in Paris, at last Paris. I am enjoying the city being Dickie. Paris is just how I had imagined; perhaps it is one of the best cities in the world. The streets, the monuments… it has a special atmosphere.

I have been invited to a party by a couple with whom I was talking in a café. Tom going to a party... maybe an impossible thing, but Dickie knows how to enjoy life. I have met a lot of people there, and I have behaved as I had never behaved at a party.

Being Dickie is easier than I thought. Actually, I merit being Dickie because I spent some days practising Dickie’s voice and movements. I also trained jumping between his character and mine so I would be able to change quickly into the other character in case I needed it. Moreover, I had been polishing up Dickie’s way to write. My last chance was to enter to Paris, and I had no problems with Dickie’s passport which meant that my new hairstyle was the appropriate one.

Things are going to change

Dickie’s life… mmmm. I am exhausted but I know I have done the right thing. I couldn’t renounce to that kind of life, and Dickie was a trouble.

And now, what can I do? I can go to Paris or maybe… yes it would be better to go to Mongibello and pick up Dickie’s stuff as soon as possible. I am going to tell Marge that Dickie is in Rome at the hotel he used to go The Inghilterra and that he is going to use the American Express as a mailing address. And of course I should explain her that he may not go to Cortina with her. I could tell her that I am going back to the States on December so it would be easier to “disappear”.

San Remo

Marge and Dickie are planning to go to Cortina to sky with friends. They didn’t told me to join with them.
They are also preparing the Christmas days. Marge is full of plans about it. Dickie asked me if I’m going home on Christmas. I don’t have a home and Dickie knows it… I’m feeling alone, they are leaving me out…
I hate Dickie! I offered him my friendship and he has replied with ingratitude. I would like to be like Dickie, I could become Dickie himself, and I could do everything that DIckie did. I will kill Dickie! Now I must think how to do it!
I might kill him in our last trip, in San Remo…
Maybe in the water… maybe we can take a boat and there… Yes, I might kill him by hitting him with the oar of the boat…

Disagreement

Dickie and I were planning to go to Paris. I had a very funny idea to get there: we could go to Paris in a coffin! I had talked with someone about it and he was going to pay us for it. But when I told my idea to Dickie he thought that I was crazy. I can't believe it! We are not as close as we were.
This morning I have received a letter from Dikie’s father. He said he thinks that I haven’t been successful. He is not going to send me money anymore. I failed!
After that Dickie told me that he won’t go to Paris. Instead, he suggested to go to San Remo. Well I preferred going to Paris but…

Marge

Today Marge has been angry with us because we were planning a trip to Greek Islands. She won’t come and I have noticed that Dickie is sad. She is fed up with me! Then Dickie has gone to visit Marge at her house. I have followed him and I have observed them across the window. Dickie was kissing her! I wouldn’t have believed it possible! I have felt angry, sad… Dickie’s cheated me!
When I have arrived at Dickie’s home I have gone to his room and I have put his clothes! Then Dickie’s has entered! What a embarrassing situation! He has been very angry with me! I have been petrified…

Mongibello

I am in Mongibello! This is beautiful!
I met Dickie on the beach and I have been with him several times since that day. Dickie has a wonderful life. He is hansom, he wears expensive clothes and also two special rings that I like so much. He spends his time going to the beach, sailing with his boat... It is amazing!
He is always with a friend, Marge, but he told me that he is not falling in love with her. One day I met Dickie on the beach alone. I told him the real motive of my trip. We laughed a lot. Since that day we are closer friends. I think Marge feels a bit jealous because Dickie is spending a lot of time with me. That’s wonderful! He has offered me to move to his house. I have accepted, of course!
Tomorrow we are going to visit Naples! Marge will not come!